Liam is 11 weeks old today... I can't believe he's almost 3 months! He's getting so big... he has learned to smile, and he does it SO much. I love it. He will be staring at me with his typical grumpy face and he'll just bust out in this big, beautiful grin.
S. is now working two jobs. I feel bad about that since I'm not working, and I know he's just doing this for me and L... but I have been focusing on school. And I don't have *time* to work unless we put Liam in daycare, which neither of us are willing to do. i will say though, I am tired of school. I am tired of having to be away from my little boy - even if it's only 3 or less hours a day. Stuart offered me a "break" today. He said, stay at school all day and he would bring Liam to his parents' house. But I wouldn't do it... I just wanted to be near my kid as much as possible.
I don't know if I wrote about PPD here before or not. My OB has tried to put me on Zoloft but I decided to hold off. She says it's safe for breastfeeding but I did not want anything extra possibly getting into my son. But I might take her up on it soon... I'm beginning to feel a little less "human" these days. This morning I woke up, convinced that something terrible had happened to L. I looked over at him and didn't see his chest moving. I put my hand on his chest to feel him breathing. Nothing. I jiggled him a little bit to see if he'd breathe/move. NOTHING. I reached over and shook Stuart to wake him up. He saw me leaned over Liam visibly upset, jiggling him and he jumped up scared. Liam just opened his eyes and looked at the two of us like we were crazy.
I'm seriously losing it!
Besides all that, I don't know. Nothing really happens in my life. I go to school, I take care of Liam, I fight on the internet with catty bitches? That is all...
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Try the Zoloft. I have heard great things about it... 2 years later and I am hunting down some drugs.... I just can't feel "normal" anymore.... It sucks and I want to be myself again! I be L is getting so big!
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